Our no-holds-barred, exclusive interview with Taylor Armstrong continues. Tonight, The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills reality star reveals new details surrounding her husband Russell Armstrong's suicide -- and how she discovered he was dead that fateful August day.
"I'm sure a lot of people won't understand this, but I asked the emergency workers if I could go in and hug him before they took him away, but they wouldn't let me," Taylor tells our Nancy O'Dell, wiping away tears. "I just felt like I needed to see him one last time, but they wouldn't let me."
Despite her recent abuse claims at the hands of her late husband, Taylor remains emotionally attached and even wears his wedding ring on her finger together with her own: "Right now I'm still doing anything I can to just figure out how to get close to him," she explains. "I just never would have imagined that he would be in a position where he felt as though life isn't worth living."
Watch the video for more details of the emotionally gut-wrenching day, and how daughter Kennedy is doing following her father's death.
For more information on Taylor, visit her website.