A very emotional Bethenny Frankel stopped by The Ellen DeGeneres Show, where she didn't shy away from discussing her recent split from husband Jason Hoppy.
"Do I want to be doing this exact thing right now? No, but I can't just only be on reality TV and show everything when it's a fairy princess fairytale and then not take my hits when I have to," Bethenny said, with news of her divorce still fresh in the headlines. "Does this especially bother me [gesturing to the tabloid magazines]? No, but dealing with that plus personal stuff at the same time is very surreal thing. Just going through something personal you have so many different emotions and I feel like a bit of a disappointment to all of you. And I feel like a failure."
Bethenny announced she was separating from Jason, who's she's been married to for two years, on December 23, and is clearly taking the split hard.
"I feel like a failure. I really put it out there. I wanted the fairytale. I thought I had it. And Bryn [her daughter] is my fairytale ... I get letters …So many people have been so supportive and some people are judgmental and I really understand."
However, the 42-year-old television personality stressed that she still believes in love.
"I also get letters from people saying, 'now I don't believe in love,' and that's just not true. Love is everywhere. It's the road and you're on it. It has peaks and valleys and that's what it is, but I don't know how people go through this because this is excruciating, I have to say."
She also addressed the criticism that she prioritized her business over her marriage.
"Yes, a lot of my life has been business. [But] since we did the show this summer, I've just been home being more of a stay-at-home mom. A lot of people are saying that I chose business over love, which couldn't be further from the truth," she said. "I don't really do much, and this [the tabloids have] kind of made me say to myself, 'oh my gosh.' Fame is a weird thing. Maybe I want to get off the ride … But doing [my talk show] every day -- that's what I'm supposed to do, and talking to people and women every day -- have these conversations that are difficult --and that's kind of why I'm here today."
Bethenny's full interview airs Wednesday, January 9, on The Ellen DeGeneres Show.