Nicole Scherzinger is getting surprisingly reflective in a new interview with The Independent
, in which the 34-year-old former Pussycat Dolls frontwoman confesses that she wishes she was "more slutty" because it might have helped her career.
When talking about her sexually suggestive duet with 50 Cent, Right There, she says, "With these kind of songs, I don't feel I have to justify myself to anyone. I come from the most religious family – my grandfather is a priest – and if they support me in all this, and they do, then I'm OK. I'm being sassy and classy; I'm having fun. I'm not coming from a dark place. To be honest with you, I sometimes wish I were more slutty. I'd probably be a lot more successful if I were."
To make it in the industry Scherzinger claims, you have to "sell your soul to the Devil."
"No, I haven't. That's probably why I haven't quite reached the top of my mountain. I mean, where's my Tony Award, my Grammy, my Oscar? Why don't I have any of those things yet?," she asks.
In the candid interview, she also reveals she was instructed to lose weight the moment she joined the Pussycat Dolls, and became increasingly self-conscious about her body. She ended up battling bulimia for more than a decade.
"You know, I didn't have the confidence to go around in all that lingerie," she says about that time. "I'm a crazy b**** now, of course, and I'm all over that, I love it, I embrace it. But back then? Back then, I wasn't comfortable at all. I'd never worn stuff like that in my life."
Though she says she's glad she eventually revealed her eating disorder secret on a VH1 documentary, she also admits she was initially embarrassed about it.
"As soon as I did open up about it I regretted it. I felt humiliated, I didn't want it to be screened. I didn't want the world to see that side of me. But now I'm so glad they have," she says. "The impact I've had on other sufferers is just… I can't tell you, it's so amazing. That I am now in a position to give strength, and support, to others… It's awesome."