Prison Break star Wentworth Miller, 41, who came out as a gay man in August, recently opened up about his struggles with coming to terms with his sexuality, revealing that he's tried to commit suicide more than once.
"The first time I tried to kill myself I was 15. I waited until my family went away for the [weekend] and I was alone in the house and I swallowed a bottle of pills," he revealed
via Us Weekly
, addressing a large audience during a Human Rights Campaign Dinner in Seattle on Saturday, Sept. 7. "I don't remember what happened over the next couple of days but I'm pretty sure come Monday morning I was on the bus back to school pretending everything was fine."
He also admitted to the fear he had of how coming out would affect his career.
"I had multiple opportunities to speak my truth, which is that I was gay, but I chose not to. I was out privately to family and friends -- publicly, I was not," he said. "I chose to lie -- when I thought about the possibility of coming out, how that might impact me and the career I worked so hard for, I was filled with fear."
Miller came out on Aug. 21, when he rejected an invitation to attend the St. Petersburg International Film Festival due to Russian president Vladimir Putin's decision to pass a law prohibiting adoption of Russian-born children to national and international same-sex couples.
"I am deeply troubled by the current attitude toward and treatment of gay men and women by the Russian government," Miller wrote
in the letter. "The situation is in no way acceptable, and I cannot in good conscience participate in a celebratory occasion hosted by a country where people like myself are being systematically denied their basic right to live and love openly."