Rodriguez tearfully expounds on the friendship
she shared with Walker
, saying she never had a connection with another person like that. "I could see Paul once every two years and just know there was another human on the planet who's deep like me, who loves like that," she says. "When that disappears, you wonder, 'Wait a minute, what do I hold on to?' There was nothing to tether me to this existence: 'Why am I f**king here? And, like, why'd you leave without me?'"