"I had to make a commitment to myself to be alone
: no flirting," she said this past January. "No possibility of anything. No boys in any way, shape or form. I said, 'I'm shutting it down.' I'd never been alone. ... I always found my comfort in another person. Instead of giving myself time to heal and be on my own, I was so afraid to be that, I was always like, 'Okay somebody else just come in here and help me forget I'm in so much pain.' I was terrified of being alone."