Kim Kardashian is "beyond excited" about being pregnant with her second child but also shares with Glamour magazine the struggles she faced when trying to conceive for a second time and why she chose to expose those vulnerable moments on Keeping Up with the Kardashians.
News broke Sunday night that the 34-year-old reality star was pregnant after it was revealed in a promo for her family's show.
"[Motherhood] really changes you," Kim tells the women's magazine. "When I found out I was pregnant [with North West], I was going through an awful divorce, Kanye and I had just been dating for seven months -- granted, we knew each other for a decade -- and I was like, 'I can't do this. It's not the right time.' But then I figured, If I'm in my thirties and I'm not ready, I'll never be ready. So it's been the biggest lesson, and the biggest joy of my life."
While Kim and husband Kanye West knew they were ready for another child, she admits that they considered surrogacy after she had trouble getting pregnant again. She even discloses that she thought about not sharing that part of her life on KUWTK.
"I didn't know that I was going to be so open with [my fertility challenges]," Kim says. "But meeting people at my fertility doctor's office who are going through the same things I'm going through, I thought, 'Why not share my story?' It's been really emotional. One doctor told me I would need my uterus removed after I had another baby -- I could only have one more."
She continues, "One was like, 'You should get a surrogate.' The other one was like, 'Oh, no, you'll be fine.' Then I called my doctor, and he's like, 'You know what? I believe -- we'll get through it.'"
Kim confesses that it wasn't always easy. "There are definitely times when I walked out [of the doctor's office] hysterically crying," she recalls. "And other times when I was like, 'Okay, everything's looking good, it's going to be this month!' The waiting and waiting has been a roller coaster."
While she did decide to share her fertility woes with the world, Kim tells Glamour she's a "completely different person" since her 2012 interview with the magazine. "I don't know if it's growing up or being with Kanye, who's more private, but I try and live my off time as privately as possible," she says. "I used to enjoy the spotlight. If I had a day off from filming, I didn't know what to do. Now I enjoy my family time so much, there is this sense of, if it all went away, and I was just a mom, I would love my life."
As for what she's learned from her daughter North, the Selfish author adds, "North has taught me patience. There's nothing I wouldn't do for her. And nothing I wouldn't do for my husband. She's empowered us to want to be the best parents and the best spouses."