Tracy Morgan is speaking out for the first time since the devastating car crash in New Jersey last June that left him in critical condition.
"I can't believe I'm here. I can't believe I'm in front of you," he told Today's Matt Lauer bluntly.
Morgan cried while remembering McNair, who died when the 30 Rock star's tour bus collided with a Walmart truck on the New Jersey turnpike. Last week, Walmart settled a lawsuit filed by Morgan. The amount of the settlement is undisclosed.
"The case is settled, but the pain is always going to be there for Jimmy Mac," Morgan said. "Bones heal, but the loss of my friend will never heal. ... He was a good man. It just hurts me to see that he's gone."
The former Saturday Night Live star said he doesn't remember the accident, though he's watched it on YouTube. Last November, his lawyer, Benedict Morelli, told the Associated Press that Morgan may never recover from his "traumatic brain injury."
"There are times where I have my good days and my bad days, where I forgot things, you know," Morgan said about his recovery. "There are times where I have the headaches and the nose bleeds."
Emotionally, Morgan said it's "been up and down," though he did give shout outs to his fiancee Megan, and his longtime friend Tina Fey for "keeping his spirits up." He said Fey has been calling to check up on him.
The beloved comedian said he eventually plans to return to comedy, though right now, he is clearly not "100 percent."
"I love comedy," he said. "I'll never stop loving her, and I can't wait to get back to her, but right now my goal is just to heal and get better. 'Cause I'm not 100 percent yet. I'm just not. And when I'm there, you'll know it. I'll get back to making you laugh. I promise you."
Last July, cameras caught up with an upbeat Morgan, who gave the peace sign and thanked everyone for the outpouring of support he's received since the accident. Watch below: