Caitlyn Jenner is here!
Gracing the cover of Vanity Fair’s July issue, Jenner opens up for the first time about her female identity that has been shrouded in mystery following her interview as Bruce to Diane Sawyer.
In the profile written by Friday Night Lights author, Buzz Bissinger, Caitlyn talks about her transition, the struggles that plagued her, and when she’ll make her first public appearance. And it’s probably one of the most profound stories you’ll read this year.
1. Bruce Jenner’s transition into Caitlyn was completed on March 15, 2015.
Jenner underwent facial-feminization surgery, which includes procedures as hairline correction, forehead contouring, and jaw and chin contouring, and breast augmentation.
2. Caitlyn has undergone most of the transition process without the aid of medication.
Despite the knowledge of the pain created by the procedures, including two years of electrolysis to remove his beard, Jenner has resisted taking any medication to alleviate it because he hated “the way it made him feel.”
“Pain is kind of, for me, part of the pain for being me … this is what you get for being who you are,” she told Vanity Fair. “Just take the pain.”
3. Caitlyn was constantly plagued by "uncomfortableness" about her decision to come out as a transgender woman.
“You wonder if you are making all the right decisions,” Caitlyn said. “I wish I were kind of normal. It would be so much more simple.”
“The uncomfortableness of being me never leaves all day long,” she added. “I’m not doing this to be interesting. I’m doing this to live. I’m not doing this so I can hit it off the women’s tee.”
4. Caitlyn wore pantyhose and bras underneath her suits -- even when fulfilling public commitments following her 1976 Olympic win.
“Underneath my suit I have a bra and panty hose and this and that and thinking to myself, They know nothing about me,” she revealed.
“I walk off the stage and I’d feel like a liar,” she added. “And I would say, ‘F--k, I can’t tell my story. There’s so much more to me than those 48 hours in the stadium, and I can’t talk about it.’ It was frustrating. You get mad at yourself.... Little did they know I was totally empty inside. Totally empty inside.”
5. Caitlyn’s four oldest kids knew about her identity as young as pre-teens.
Burt and Cassandra both learned about Caitlyn's true gender identity when they were 13 and 11.
In the mid to late ‘80s, Brody noticed Caitlyn's body changing after she had started taking hormones. Brody even asked his mother about it -- though she did not tell him until he was 29.
“As soon as I heard it, it was almost a relief. Because it just made a lot of sense growing up,” Brody told Vanity Fair. “Reasons and things like why he wasn’t there. Not around. I finally realized he had his own issues he was dealing with at that time.”
6. When and how much Kris Jenner knew “is a matter of dispute.”
Even though Buzz talked to both Caitlyn and Kris, it’s unclear just how much Caitlyn told Kris about her gender identity.
“When I met Bruce,” Kris said, “he told me that he had done hormones back in the early '80s. This was a conversation that took place in the early '90s. So, what he was telling me happened a decade earlier, and he never really explained it.”
She added that “there wasn’t a gender issue. Nobody mentioned a gender issue. Somebody mentioned that [he] at one point in his life liked to dress up.”
Caitlyn revealed that she cross-dressed in front of her, but Kris quickly set ground rules: “[s]he could cross-dress when he was traveling on his own but not at home.”
7. Caitlyn is a better, stronger person than Bruce.
Having lived a life of “telling lies,” Caitlyn is focusing on not keeping any secrets. “[Caitlyn] doesn’t have any lies,” she said.
And her oldest son, Burt, has the same hope: “I have high hopes that Caitlyn is a better person than Bruce. I’m very much looking forward to that.”
8. Caitlyn used a “girls’ night” to introduce her to her daughter, Cassandra.
“I was just nervous that I wouldn’t make her feel comfortable,” Cassandra said of the small, casual gatherings Caitlyn hosted during her transition. “I was worried I wouldn’t say the right things or act the right way or seem relaxed… We talked more than we ever have. We could just be girls together.”
9. Caitlyn’s four oldest kids refuse to participate in her upcoming series documenting her transition.
Both Caitlyn and E! executives have failed to persuade her kids to participate, which ultimately “disappointed” Caitlyn. However, the kids are mostly worried about how the program will be perceived and if it will educate the public.
Caitlyn assured the magazine the show will focus on preventing suicide and other issues related to the transgender community.
The show, currently untitled, premieres on E! on July 26.
10. Even Caitlyn mixes up the proper pronoun usage from time to time.
“I don’t really get hung up,” Caitlyn said. “A guy came in the other day and I was fully dressed -- it’s just habit, I said ‘Hi, Bruce here,’ and I went, Oh f--k, it ain’t Bruce, I was screwing up doing it.”
11. Caitlyn will make her first public appearance at the ESPYs.
On July 15, Caitlyn will be awarded with the Arthur Ashe Courage Award -- the same honor given to Michael Sam last year for becoming the first out NFL prospect -- at ESPN’s annual awards show. According to the magazine, all 10 children and stepchildren are expected to attend.
Check out even more glamorous photos from the issue below: