Courtney Love is still seeking answers more than 20 years after Kurt Cobain committed suicide at age 27.
In a series of heartbreaking messages posted to her Facebook and Instagram, the 51-year-old rocker shared bedroom photos of her, Cobain and their newborn daughter Frances Bean.
“Makes me feel so sad. Our baby is all grown up now,” Love captioned one of the family photos posted to her social media accounts. “Jesus Kurt look at her face, what on earth were you thinking..!?!?”
“God I miss you, we all miss you,” she continued, ending the note with the hashtags “#family #memories #turnbacktime #lovehim.”
In another photo, the Nirvana frontman is seen lying down on the bed with his feet propped up against the bedframe, with little Frances Bean in between his legs and Love resting her head against him.
“My greatest love and our precious Bean,” she captioned that pic, using the hashtags “#missyou #memories” to articulate her mood.
Earlier this year Cobain was the subject of a critically-hailed HBO documentary, Kurt Cobain: Montage of Heck, which used previously unseen home footage, journals and recordings to paint a portrait of the late singer.
At the film’s Tribeca Film Festival premiere in April, Love admitted to feeling “some shame” while watching it – at the time, it was her fourth time viewing it.
“Mostly I get really sad. There’s guilt, about what I could have done,” she said back then. “I told myself I wouldn’t see it again, but I did. Self-punishment I guess.”
She also opened up about the effect Cobain had on her, saying, “We were best friends.”
“I’ve had great boyfriends since, but I’ll never have another friend like that,” she admitted. “It’s that punch-drunk love, where you meet your soulmate and you’re 26 and f**king and talking and fighting and f**king. There are other kinds of love, more mature love. But this was a soulmate thing.”
Love and her daughter, who turned 23 years old on Aug. 18, served as executive producers on the doc.