In a new clip from Season 11 of Keeping Up With the Kardashians
, Kendall Jenner candidly reveals that she stalled when it came to meeting Caitlyn for the first time
, after knowing her father as Bruce Jenner her whole life.
"But the only thing is, I haven't met her, so ..." Kendall tells her big sister, 31-year-old Khloe Kardashian. "Well, it's also a letting go thing. It's like when you officially meet her it's like, he's gone. I think that's what I'm holding on to. That's why I've taken so long to meet her."
Still, she appears to be dealing with her emotions in the best way she can.
"I'm alright," the 19-year-old supermodel says. "I feel like it's a process. It's something to get used to, for sure."
While meeting Caitlyn for the first time was definitely a big moment for Kendall, she did recently admit that she's actually known about her father's desire to become a woman since she "was a kid."
"He never confirmed it to me, but I've known for a very long time," she told WWD. "It's the same person,"
She also stressed that Caitlyn herself understands her feelings of loss.
"My dad says it herself sometimes, it's kind of like mourning the loss of someone, because it is," Kendall added. "My dad is my dad, but he’s not there physically anymore. But she lets me call her dad -- that's the last little piece of dad I've got."
ET recently caught up with Kendall at this year's New York Fashion Week, when she revealed why she keeps her own dating life
notoriously private. Watch below: