Even Taylor Swift isn't immune to the bitter feelings of losing.
The 25-year-old superstar gets candid about losing Album of the Year
at last year's GRAMMY Awards in a new interview with GRAMMY Pro
, and how badly it disappointed her. Taylor was nominated for her album, Red
, which lost to Daft Punk's Random Access Memories
"When they announced the Album of the Year winner it was like, 'And the album of the year goes to ... Reeeeeandom Access Memories, Daft Punk!' And they really dragged out the 'reeee," Taylor recalls. "And for a second there, I kind of thought we had it, and we didn't."
"I remember not going to after-parties," she admits. "I went home and I cried a little bit, and I got In-N-Out Burger and ate a lot."
The "Wildest Dreams" singer explains that she got her hopes up prior to the big night.
"Going up to it, everybody comes up to you and they're like, 'Oh, you got this, you're gonna win, you're gonna win,' and I wish they wouldn't do that 'cause you don't know if you're gonna win --and someone else could very well win -- and someone else very well did," she says.
"You have a few options when you don't win an award," she muses. "You can decide like, 'Oh, they're wrong, they all voted wrong.' Second, you can be like, 'I'm gonna go up on the stage and take the mic from whoever did win it' ... Or third, you can say, 'Maybe they're right -- maybe I did not make the record of my career.' Maybe I need to fix the problem, which was that I have not been making sonically cohesive albums. I need to really think about whether I'm listening to a scared record label and what that's doing to the art I'm making."
Clearly, her follow-up album, 1989
, exceeded all expectations. She explains that the single "Blank Space" is meant as a satire for the way she says the media portrays her
-- as a serial dater who's so clingy she can't keep a boyfriend.
"The media decided that I dated too many people," Taylor says. "You know, you're sitting at an awards show, and you know there’s gonna be a joke about you being a serial dater in the monologue, and you're just sitting there like, I'm 22, and this is rude. But instead of writing a song like, 'It's so rude, stop picking on me,' I kind of sat back and thought about how complex this character was that they'd drawn up for me."
"And I just thought, 'This is amazing.' I need to write a song from this girl's perspective," she says about how the hit eventually came about. "If you want to play this way, we can play this way, and I just decided to be her for one song."
To see the complete, in depth conversation with Taylor about the making of the 1989
album, go to GrammyPro.com.