Lady Gaga shared that her dream of being a famous musician soon became the root of her unhappiness.
As part of the 29-year-old pop star
's Emotion Revolution project, a partnership between her own Born This Way Foundation and Yale's Center for Emotional Intelligence, Gaga revealed that there was a moment where she thought about giving up music altogether.
"I have had to make decisions. 'Why am I unhappy? Okay, Stefani (her real name), Gaga, hybrid-person. Why are you unhappy? Why is it that you wanted to quit music years ago?'" she asked herself. "I feel sad when I’m overworked, and that I just become a money making machine, and that my passion and my creativity take a back seat; that makes me unhappy."
In an effort to find herself again, Gaga says she started to say no to things, including perfume sponsorships and long days of taking promotional photos and selfies. “It feels shallow," she said. "I have a lot more to offer than my image."
Once she took a stand, Gaga says she began to feel better. "Slowly but surely, I remembered who I am,” she continued. "Then you go home and you look in the mirror and you’re like ‘Yes, I can go to bed with you every night.' Cause that person? I know that person. That person has balls. That person has integrity. That person just doesn’t say yes."
Gaga says she also wanted to stop agonizing about how she sounded over text and social media. "This is the age that we live in," she explained. "We’re not actually communicating with each other. We’re unconsciously communicating lies."
This year, Gaga has been opening up about more and more about her personal struggles in an effort to help those with similar issues.
"I've suffered through depression and anxiety my entire life," she admitted during a recent interview with Billboard
magazine. "I still suffer with it every single day."