Khloe Kardashian has gone to great lengths to look after Lamar Odom as he recovers
from being placed into a medically induced coma after he was found unresponsive in a Nevada brothel.
A source close to the 31-year-old reality star tells ET that Khloe's decision to put her divorce on hold from Lamar
was not so they could rekindle their relationship, but rather so she could keep her power of attorney privileges. This way, she can continue to make medical decisions for Lamar when he is not able to do so himself. Khloe did not think there was anyone else in the former NBA pro
's life that could be trusted with such a big responsibility.
"Khloe is not delusional. She knows what's going on and what people are saying about her
," the source said of her devotion to Lamar. "She realizes what it looks like to the outside world, but to people in her family and inner circle, there was no question that she would be doing this right now."
That said, she's still going to some lengths to protect herself.
"Lamar is the love of Khloe's life. But she’s fully aware that he could go back to drugs," the source said. "So that part is holding her back somewhat from giving herself fully to him again. She will not get back together with him officially until he becomes clean."
Now that Lamar is at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles, California, the Keeping Up With the Kardashians
star feels more comfortable leaving his bedside
and has even slept at her own home several times. She's also paying for a room on the same floor as her husband.
Khloe's family has remained close with Lamar despite the couple's ups and downs. According to our source, Lamar was still sending Khloe's mother, Kris Jenner, flowers long after he had broken up with her daughter.
"The family still considers him to be a part of them. Lamar suffers from addiction and, at that moment, they all thought he could die," the source said. "People were saying their goodbyes to him in [Sunrise Hospital in Las Vegas], it was awful. There was no question that all the girls would fly there to see Lamar, and especially to be there to support their sister."
While the 35-year-old athlete has a long road to recovery ahead of him now that he's out of the coma, Khloe refuses to give up on him.
“This is his chance to finally quit drugs all together and start a new life," the source says. "And everyone is just hoping he will.".