Mary-Louise Parker may have written a memoir, but she isn’t ready to tell all.
Dear Mr. You is told in a series of letters written to various, unnamed men in her life. While the Weeds actress doesn’t explicitly mention ex-boyfriend Billy Crudup, who left her in 2003 after eight years of dating and while she was seven months pregnant for Claire Danes, she does reflect on the period of time immediately after the split.
In one letter, titled “Dear Mr. Cabdriver,” she details a taxi ride she took over a decade ago. After the driver got lost on the way to one of her appointments, Parker screamed at him and was thrown out of his cab, with the driver saying, “I don’t want you anymore.”
She writes (as excerpted by Jezebel):
“No one does
My voice was shot and I barely got out
Look at me
You turned at looked, I think for the first time...
My life is worse than yours in this moment.
I am alone. Look, see? I am pregnant and alone. It hurts to even breathe.
Your hand slowly went to your mouth
I’m trying to get through it but I’m by myself every night and every morning and no one, nothing helps. I’m sorry I yelled. I can’t get my shoes on anymore. Please, I know I am awful, it’s been made clear but look at me please
Look at me”
“I don’t know what you thought, if you had a daughter or a wife, or if my little drama was a hangnail compared to your life,” she writes, continuing on to say that she still feels bad about the incident. “I have thought of you and know you wouldn’t remember me, but I am sorry.”
Parker, who shares a now 11-year-old son, William, with Crudup, concludes, “I realize now that whatever I was walking through was part of my life, one piece of a bigger story that is mostly beautiful.”
For her part, Danes recently opened up about the scandal on Howard Stern’s Sirius XM show, saying, “I was just in love with him and needed to explore that. And I was 24…I didn’t quite know what those consequences would be.”
“It’s OK,” the Homeland actress reflected. “I went through it.”
Now, find out what a 15-year-old Danes had to say about getting famous: