These days Gwen Stefani is in a really good place. The No Doubt frontwoman not only has a new solo album, This Is What the Truth Feels Like, out, she also has moved on from her divorce with Gavin Rossdale to a new romance with Blake Shelton.
But when her album was first coming together, the pop star admits she wasn't in the best head space.
"I didn't want to make a record: I just wanted to not die. That's it," she told GQ in a new interview. "The fact that now I have a record and people are hearing it, it just blows my mind."
Stefani also noted that she didn't waste time overthinking her situation or her music. She let the lyrics speak for themselves.
"I did not think anything. I wasn't thinking. I was feeling and I was dying," she continued. "And then I was just like, 'You can't go down like this! You have to turn this into music. You have to try, at least.' I was so embarrassed by just everything. I just didn't want to be that person that just went down after all of that."
The former Voice coach explained that her album came together rather quickly, documenting the ups and downs she's experienced in the last few months.
"'Used to Love You' came out only a couple weeks after I wrote it," she said. "The only reason I did that was just being honest. There's been a lot of dishonesty around me, and I just don't understand that because it's just not how I live."
And it seems her hard work has paid off. Billboard reported on Wednesday that this album could be Stefani's first No. 1 solo record on the Billboard 200 charts. It is already No. 1 on iTunes.
Some of that success could be due to her very public romance with Shelton, whom she's currently assisting as a mentor on The Voice.
"In all of this craziness that happened, I found a friend that was going through literally the exact same thing as me, and that is a miracle," Stefani recently said on CBS Sunday Morning. "It just saved me so much. I feel so grateful for that."