Rory Feek says he is doing "okay."
One month after the country singer's wife and music collaborator, Joey Feek, died at the age of 40
after a battle with cervical and colorectal cancer, Rory opens up about his life without her in a heartbreaking post on his blog
"I feel so many emotions all at the same time. Blessed. Lost. Proud. Scared. Encouraged. Tired. Thankful," he writes. "I have a lot of good people around me and they pour love all over Indy and I."
"I miss my wife. I miss my best friend. I miss her voice and her laugh and her eyes and her smile," Rory says. "It’s still hard for me to imagine that she’s not here, and she’s not ever coming back. But I know that time will make it easier...I know there will come a day when I won’t miss her this much, when I won’t wonder where she is and what she is doing right now in heaven."
The 49-year-old singer and the couple's 2-year-old daughter, Indiana, returned to their family farm in Tennessee after Joey's hospice care in her hometown of Alexandria, Indiana, and Rory says it's "hard" being there without his late wife.
"I know she wants us here. And I know it’s where we need to be," he writes. "I moved our bed to a different part of the room, against a different wall… because I needed it to be different. I sleep on her side of the bed now. I can't sleep on mine. And when people come to dinner and they sit in Joey’s chair, I want to tell them not to sit there, but I don't. But I want to."
Rory explains in the post that he is a big fan of the movie Forrest Gump -- so much so that the GRAMMY-nominated couple had Forrest Gump-themed napkins at their wedding -- and sweetly reveals he relates to the film even more now.
"I make the walk out to the cemetery behind the house every day and stand over the loose dirt and I talk to her. Like Forrest Gump talked to Jenny under the big tree that they played in as children," he concludes. "Forrest loved Jenny like I love Joey. Simply. Deeply."
The ACM Awards remembered Joey during Sunday's ceremony and daughter Hopie was in attendance to see the touching tribute. Watch in the video below.