With her first child
coming "any day now," Ali Fedotowsky reflected on the last nine months in a candid blog post
on Wednesday, tackling the ups and downs of pregnancy.
The 31-year-old former Bachelorette
star directed fans to the blog in an Instagram post
flaunting her baby bump in a printed maxi dress. "37 weeks pregnant! My doctor said the baby could arrive any day now! I'm reflecting on what these past 9 months have been," she wrote. "This is an extremely personal blog post where I'm really putting it all out there. My worries, my current aches and pains, my hopes for the future. I hope you all get a chance to read it!"
In the blog post, Fedotowsky writes that she's "giddy at the thought" of seeing her daughter "for the first time," but that doesn’t mean everything about her pregnancy has been great.
The reality star admits that the last month has been "really hard at times," and she’s been leaning on her husband, Kevin Manno, for moral support.
"I have found that my pregnancy has gone beyond just a physical toll on my body and it's starting to take an emotional toll," wrote Fedotowsky. "The other day while trying to relax in our pool, I broke down to Kevin about how I've been feeling. I just sat there, cried my eyes out, and poured my heart out to him while floating like a beached whale on a floaty. What a site [sic] that must have been."
Despite the rough patches, and contemplating deleting the entire post because her gripes felt too "trivial," Fedotowsky said she’s "so so SO happy to be pregnant" and feels "incredibly lucky to be ABLE to be pregnant and bring a little life into this world."
"I realize that there are many women out there that would give ANYTHING to be in my position. And my heart aches for those women," she explained. "I will never know your pain or pretend that what I am going through is anything compared to what you're going through. But I have to be honest with my feelings right now and lately, I just want my body back. I want to have a drink at the end of a stressful day. I want to be able to tie my own shoes. I want to sleep on my stomach. I want to go to yoga. I want to walk my dog around the block without being in terrible pain. I want to eat runny eggs for breakfast. I want to not be in pain. I want to feel like myself again."
"I know I am going to miss being pregnant when it's over," admitted Fedotowsky. "I know I'll forget about all the aches and pains and just remember the things I love about it."
She went on to highlight some of the happier pregnancy moments, like the "magical" feeling of the baby kicking for the first time.
"The good and the bad, I am overjoyed at the thought of meeting our little girl so soon! I know the moment I hold her in my arms none of the pains of pregnancy will matter. It will all be more than worth it," she wrote adding, "Now, I just need to start mentally preparing for labor. But that's a whole other story and whole other blog post! Next time."