In a Rolling Stone interview released on Wednesday, the rapper opened up about his relationship with ex-fiancée Ciara, and their explosive custody battle over two-year-old son Future Zahir.
"I can't deal with it," Future told the magazine about the custody battle that has resulted from his breakup with the singer. "I can't even think about it. I never imagined my life would be like that: 'I'm going to sue you and take away from you.'"
"I don't know how to deal with something like that," the 32-year-old rapper confessed, adding that making music in the studio has become a source of escape. "All I know is record, record, record, record."
Of course, his relationship with Ciara has been tense for some time -- three months after welcoming their son
in 2014, Future was accused of cheating on the "Body Party" singer. The resulting breakup quickly turned volatile -- with Future speaking out about his ex on several occasions.
Just last July, the rapper addressed pictures
of Ciara's then-boyfriend (now fiancé), Russell Wilson, pushing Future Jr. in a stroller.
"You never do that in our community. You don't even bring a man around your son. You only know this dude for a few months and you're bringing him around your kid? Who does that?" he said during a radio interview with the Breakfast Club. "I'm not for the publicity stunts. Leave my son out of the publicity stunts."
Several months later, the rapper again called out Ciara. "This b*tch got control problems. I gotta go through lawyers to see babyfuture…the f**kery for 15k a month," he posted in a now-deleted tweet.
In February, Ciara sued Future for $15 million,
alleging that the rapper has slandered and libeled her in "multiple false and defamatory statements." The 30-year-old singer claimed her ex was pulling a publicity stunt of his own, alleging in the court documents that his comments were made "to increase interest and publicity" around his new album. She also shot down his claim that he was paying her $15,000 a month in child support.
But despite Future's charged statements, and media reports claiming he wishes for Ciara's "failure," the "Low Life" rapper declares he holds no ill will towards Ciara. "I would never wish that," he told Rolling Stone. "Her being successful, her being happy, helps me."
"I'm attached to you," he said, addressing Ciara directly. "If you're happy, I'm happy. You're connected for life. I don't want you to go through this shit and for it to come back on my son, my kid. I want you to be in the best situation."
But while it appears the rapper is trying to take the high road with his ex, he admits accepting that Wilson is playing a role in his son's life
is something he still struggles with. "It's something that'll take more time for me," he told the magazine. "It ain't even about [him] playing daddy. I don't even want to think about it. That's my son forever. My son is going to be able to read this. He's going to be able to look at those pictures. He's going to be able to have a judgement for himself, and have a conversation with me man-to-man. That's my blood. He is me. I am him. We is one."
While Future struggles to accept that his ex has moved on with Wilson, Ciara clearly has no reservations about her relationship with the football star. The "Goodies" singer got engaged to Wilson in March, and has been showing off her massive ring ever since.
Check it out in the video below.