Jenni "JWoww" Farley is getting real.
The reality star and mother of two has been working hard on her body after giving birth to son Greyson in May, telling ET's Katie Krause she even set August's MTV Video Music Awards as her goal to debut her new figure. But while the former Jersey Shore star couldn't have felt more confident at the awards show -- "I have never felt more beautiful. My body did amazing things giving birth to my two beautiful children…I have never reached this level of love and appreciation for my body that I have until today" she wrote on Instagram -- she knows the internet isn't as kind.
I have never felt more beautiful. My body did amazing things giving birth to my two beautiful children. Even though I may have been thinner prior to them... I never reached this level of love and appreciation for my body that I have until today. During my pregnancy with Greyson, I told myself I want to get back in shape for myself, my family and for all the women out there that think after having kids they can't love how they look. I had an amazing conversation with the owner of @310nutrition and I explained "I don't want to gain the weight I did with meilani. I didn't feel like myself after I gave birth to her and I don't want to lose myself when becoming a mother of two." Long story short, with the support of @310nutrition and everyone around me... I kicked ass! I am going to continue to kick ass for all the moms like me that had insecurities after their pregnancies and think they can't ever get back to where they were. Don't ever look in the past. Look in the future with your beautiful babies and know you can have your body back but the "better version" The version that carried your perfect babies! So, I'm here to say you need to love ounce of yourself... Every stretch mark... Every part of you that makes you, YOU. I am thankful for my journey getting to this point and every goal I hit after. I could not of done this without @310nutrition and my family! I love you guys I love my healthy shakes and the support you gave me to get my confidence back Today marks the first day of a new chapter in my life. Moving forward, I will be the woman I always wanted to be but couldn't because I allowed insecurities and self doubt get in the way. Today and everyday after, I will be confident in myself, who I am as a mother, wife and just bad ass person. and I truly feel this is the best I have ever looked.
"This is how bad it can get, like at the VMAs, someone wrote, 'You're a drug addict and your kids should be taken away from you,'" she reveals, admitting that the criticism she receives on social media led to a "freak out" moment while pregnant with her son.
"With [now 2-year-old daughter] Meilani, I never actually lost all the baby weight, so going into my pregnancy with Greyson, I was already starting out 10 pounds heavier," she says. "Am I going to lose it? Am I going to feel insecure? I was like, 'Can I handle the criticism again?' Because there's a lot of criticism."
The judgement JWoww faces on social media isn't just about her looks -- it's also about her parenting. Just two months ago,she found herself the subject of online bullies who claimed she was a bad mother for allegedly not putting sunscreen on her newborn son.
JWoww was quick to shut down her critics, but tells ET that these days she’s found a simpler way to keep the bullies at bay: disabling comments on her Instagram pics.
"I did it by accident," she says of her first time experimenting with the feature. "Now I can post whatever I want and not have to worry, because yeah, I feel criticized all the time [to the point] where I don't post pictures."
"The Go90 Awestruck show is kind of my way to vent, to show we are great moms," JWoww confesses of Moms With Attitude, her web series with Nicole "Snooki" Polizzi. "Look who we are now and look who we've become. And anyone that's dumb and young and naïve in their 20s that ends up growing up, there’s nothing wrong with what you did in your past."
"You can learn from it and move on and be a wonderful mother, wife, everything, and you can take it from us," she adds.
But back to JWoww's ever-evolving look. The YouTube star insists she's not concerned with those accusing her of going under the knife.
"Chin, cheeks, eyebrows, nose done, jaw reconstruction… I laugh!" she says. "I laugh because like I said, I haven't… My weight fluctuates, my tan fluctuates. I take it as a compliment because I don't want to look like the girl that was 25 walking into the Jersey Shore house anymore with no knowledge on makeup."
And while JWoww, who has admitted to getting a boob job when she was 18, is sticking to makeup and non-invasive surgeries for now, she's not opposed to plastic surgery in the future.
"I'm always the one that says, 'Do it for the right reasons. Do it because it's like truly what you want to make yourself happy,'" she says. "I'm 31 years old. I'm not getting any younger. I'm going to do the non-invasive surgeries and things like that to stay youthful so I don't, when I'm like 50, 60, 70, have to do the more dramatic ones."
"I love the way I look and am totally honest and open with it," she shares. "I do not want a saggy face in 30 years!"
Season two of Snooki & JWoww: Moms With Attitude premieres Sept. 12 on Go90 and the Awestruck YouTube channel. JWoww also just launched her own makeup line, JWoww Cosmetics.