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Michelle Williams Painfully Recalls Moving Away From Home She Shared With Heath Ledger: I Was 'Inconsolable'

by Antoinette Bueno 11:56 AM PST, January 23, 2017
Playing Michelle Williams Painfully Recalls Moving Away From Home She Shared With Heath Ledger: I Was 'Inconsolable'

Michelle Williams is getting candid about dealing with the death of her ex-boyfriend and the father of her child, Heath Ledger.

The 36-year-old actress sold her Brooklyn home she shared with Ledger -- whom she dated for three years -- in December 2015, and in a new interview, she opens up about the devastation she experienced. Ledger died in 2008 due to an accidental overdose of prescription drugs, and Sunday marked the 9-year anniversary of his death.

"At that time, I was inconsolable, because I felt, 'How will he be able to find us?'" Williams tells WSJ. Magazine for their February issue. "This is where we lived, and he won't know where we are."

WATCH: Heath Ledger's Sister Praises Michelle Williams for Giving Daughter Matilda a 'Normal' Life

"And now I can't believe I thought that," she reflects. "Maybe that's what's making me cry is I feel sad for the person who thought he won't be able to locate [us]."

The Manchester By the Sea star is now raising her 11-year-old daughter, Matilda, as a single mom. She admits there have been some challenges.

"It's a little bit difficult to contend with a feeling of failure for not living up to a standard of normal," she shares. "Sometimes it can feel alienating; at school functions, there's only two of us single mothers. Everyone else has a partner, so we buddy up."

Still, Williams isn't looking for a romantic partner anytime soon.

"It's hard to romanticize romance when you're 36," she explains. "When you've been a parent for 11 years and you've done it alone, you don't have romantic ideals, because you have a practical understanding that you can do it by yourself. The romantic idea of meeting your person and having a storybook family life that looks like the model you grew up with -- that doesn't really exist for me."

Williams has dated since Ledger's death, including director Spike Jonze and actor Jason Segel.

"I've not gotten married because I have not had a person to whom I would -- so I have not let my sense of conformity or duty override my instincts," she says.

Of course, Matilda remains her number one priority. "[We're] stuck -- in a good place," she says of their current life. "There's a lot of constancy. She's in such a good place that I don't worry about the stability of our unit when I have to go back to work."

WATCH: Michelle Williams Says Raising Daughter Matilda Without Heath Ledger 'Won't Ever Be Right'

In November, Williams admitted that raising Matilda without Ledger "won't ever be right."

"In all honesty, for pretty much everything else, I feel like I'm a believer in not fighting circumstances, accepting where you are and where you've been. In pretty much all senses but one," Williams told Porter magazine. "I would be able to go totally down that line of thinking were it not for Matilda not having her dad. You know, that's just something that doesn't… I mean, it just won't ever be right."

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