Lo Bosworth is breaking her silence.
The 30-year-old Hills alum revealed on Friday that she's been quietly dealing with severe depression and anxiety for over a year.
“2016 wasn’t only just the worst year ever, it was also the year I turned 30, founded my own feminine wellness company, and brought an amazing puppy home,” she wrote on her blog The Lo Down in a post titled “The Great Depression."
“So not all bad. Light does find a way of shining through the darkness," she continued. "And what is the darkness I’m referring to? Crippling anxiety and depression at the hands of a severe vitamin deficiency that went undiscovered for 16 months.”
Bosworth explains that she started to feel “very off” in the fall of 2015 — “Racing mind, impulsive behavior, insomnia” — and began therapy and medication in 2016.
“I feel okay for moments of time, and then plunge back into the darkness again and again,” she wrote. “Exercise helps, my relationship helps, my family helps. But, the underlying, creeping feeling that there may not be a silver bullet to my problems, and that this state of disarray may be the new ‘me’ keeps me feeling stagnant. I wouldn’t wish my 2016 on my worst enemy.”
Finally, in September she got some answers.
“A complex blood test to look at my vitamin levels is ordered,” she explained. “A week later, a transformative call lights up my phone and ultimately, my life. I’m told I have severe deficiencies of Vitamins B12 and Vitamin D. Want to know what happens if you’re deficient? You can develop, amongst other things, depression, anxiety, fatigue, headaches, dizziness, and a lot of other vague and uncomfortable symptoms. Want to know what happens if you never address your deficiencies? The symptoms can become permanent – yes, like permanent brain damage.”
Bosworth spent the next few months doing as much research as possible, and visited doctors who practice different types of medicine.
“I went into health-discovery overdrive,” she admitted. “I saw eastern medicine doctors, holistic practitioners, acupuncturists, chiropractors, and got genetic testing done (quite easily too, through 23andme). My raw genetic details would reveal that I have mutations in the MTHFR and MAOA genes, indicating why a woman who does everything right on the outside may not feel so great on the inside.”
She now knows why her body “doesn’t process B12 and D in the way that other people can,” and she knows which vitamins and probiotics she needs to make her feel better.
“I’ve lost so much, and gained so much on the other side too,” she wrote. “I’ve grown as a human in ways I didn’t think possible. [...] I’m living proof that you should fight, you should explore, you should take your health into your own hands and be your own advocate, and that you CAN come out the other side with some serious scars, but feeling like a brand new human being.”