"It's just a lot of feelings, and I cried when I watched it, because I remember the feeling I felt when I saw my name on the ballot. That was the first time that I was like, 'Oh, whoa. Oh god. I am part of this blindside.' I had no idea," she explained. "It's really unfortunate and embarrassing to admit."
"Walking into the merge, I knew I had Dr. Mike, Cole and myself. Like, none of us were going anywhere. I knew I had Desi and I knew I had Cole. I knew that Ben was slightly defected because I knew how much he favored Chrissy. However, I had hoped that I had built enough confidence in him that he would have sided with me. [Lauren] obviously made a better decision for her game, which was going with the majority. It hurt, but I give [Lauren and Ben] both a hand clap for the decision they made," Jessica admitted. "My problem was my judgment was so clouded, because all I did was pick up Cole's trash at the merge."
Jessica and Cole's showmance at first seemed like something out of a fairy tale (if fairy tales were set in Fiji, with a bunch of Americans who haven't showered in weeks fighting for $1 million) -- but took a turn as Cole proved he couldn't keep a secret, or jive with the rest of the group. Still, Jessica, who openly discussed her virginity and lack of relationship experience, continued to play with Cole, and declared that she wanted a date after her elimination.