After a much-criticized performance on the season 19 premiere of Dancing with the Stars Monday night, Lolo Jones was the first contestant to get the boot on Tuesday's episode, and it's safe to say the Olympic athlete is taking the news hard.
"My prayer tonight is for God to soften me and my heart. When you go so many times rejected in public you put walls up. When I was dancing last night and messed up I had flashbacks of the three Olympics and that people constantly tease me about," she wrote. "I thought oh no here it comes again. People are going to ridicule me. I'm so tired of feeling embarrassed."
She also described how devastated she felt during the show's taping.
"I joined the other competitors upstairs and I couldn't force a smile on my face. I felt like vomiting and in between the other dances I went in a back room and fought back tears. I felt so broken. So unlovable. Embarrassed."
Though she does call her brief stint on the hit ABC show a "lasting lesson."
"I really wanted to stay on the show and have the layers of hurt wash away by showing the public how hard I work. I wanted to come away a victor for once. I wanted to do so good performing in public that the haters would stop teasing me," she explained. "But that is my way of thinking. Not God's. Instead I need to trust God that he would heal my heart."
Based on the judges’ scores and viewers’ votes, it was revealed that designer Betsey Johnson and Tony Dovolani, and of course Lolo Jones and her partner Keo Motsepe, were the bottom two teams Tuesday night.
Lolo and Keo were eventually eliminated, though technically, Betsey and Tony had the lowest scores.
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