Million Dollar Listing New York star Fredrik Eklund shared heartbreaking news on Facebook on Tuesday, announcing that a surrogate who was carrying twins for him and husband Derek Kaplan had suffered a miscarriage.
"I'm sad to share we've had a failed pregnancy," Eklund wrote on his Facebook page. "I have cried so much that I can't cry anymore. We were pregnant with twins but we're not anymore."
The couple, who married in February 2013, had originally been expecting a baby girl, whom they planned to name Milla.
"I chose to share this here, because I made this quest for Milla (and hopefully her sibling) public a long time ago," Eklund shared. "Every day I meet people congratulating me and Derek on the baby news, I get baby clothes sent to the office by kind strangers, and it seems that more people are invested in our little family than I could ever imagine. Our family is no different from yours... we just want to build our own unit of love in our own home."
The Swedish-born reality star, who lives in New York City with his husband and the couple’s dogs, opened up in his message about the pain of losing their children and their resilience to keep trying.
"I try to zoom out and see the bigger picture," he wrote. "It's hard most of the time. It gets a little better. It does. Derek is so kind, especially at night when I've been the saddest. We do have the dogs. We have our family and friends. They say it's common in the first ten weeks. Mini kisses my salty tears. And we will try again. We have to. I'm not giving up. We're just not going to give up! We have to go on and simply try again."
There have been reports that Eklund may not return for the next season of Million Dollar Listing New York, though the reality star's manager assured ET, "He will still be seen on the series."