The 46-year-old singer told Good Morning America's Lara Spencer that it's "still painful" to think about the end of her 13-year marriage to the 50-year-old rocker. "It's super hard to have your family break up," the mother-of-three said. "I have gone through a lot, but I feel like you have to be grateful for that. Because if I didn't do that, then I wouldn't have this. And so you have to be grateful for all of it."
Stefani used her music as a coping mechanism and ended up with an extremely honest album about the high and lows in her life. "I felt like, 'Wow, I can't go down. This is not who I am. I'm not going to fail,'" she disclosed. "I had to make something good out of it. So I tried to write because I know that that was my gift. And I was like, 'I'm going to do this. I'm going to make this into music.'"
The Voice mentor added, "I just want to write a record. I don't care about anything except for getting this out, and healing, and being honest, and real, and truthful."
The No Doubt front woman also opened up about her song, "Make Me Like You," that some fans think was written about Shelton. "It just came out. It was like, I had been feeling that way. It's just exactly what I felt that day. 'I miss you right now. Here it is,'" she explained. "And everybody in the room was just kind of like, 'Whoa, this is happening right now.' It was written fast. Like, 10, 15 minutes."
Stefani said that upon making the album, she never cared if it would bring her commercial success. "Like, why would that matter to me at this point? Like, nothing matters," she said. "I'm just trying not to die right now."
Stefani says it's been her music that has kept her spirits up. "It feels like I'm supposed to be doing this right now and sharing my story," she said. "And I really hope that this record brings pleasure and, I don't know, documents people's, you know, lives in this moment. And I just -- I'm so happy to share it."