In a new interview with Refinery 29, the 31-year-old model opens up about her battle with postpartum depression over the past year, and says that despite a few "bad days," she's seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.
Teigen, who first revealed her struggle with PPD in March, is now on "the other side" of her depression, and hopeful that by sharing her story, she can help other moms do the same.
"Just know that there’s a light on the other side," she says of what advice she'd give those going through a similar situation. "When I was in the midst of everything, I could never imagine myself on the other side of it. Now, I’m able to look at September, October, November, December, and shake my head at how dark and crazy of a period it was."
"Unfortunately, you can only really do that when you’re out of it," she adds. "There’s no other way to explain it. And there’s no better feeling than being out of it."
“You have your good and bad days. I just had a bad day a couple days ago. But the bad days do not outweigh the good days anymore. Just when you think it’s really, really bad, it’s going to get better," she continues. “So hopefully, if you’re going through something tough you can find some peace in knowing that."
Teigen, whose daughter Luna will turn 1 on Friday, also opened up about the "natural" changes she's gone through since becoming a mom -- and how, despite the added responsibility, "you can still be cool."
“You definitely do have to change. You just have to. But a lot of my friends and I joke whenever I go out, like ‘Oh, here goes cool mom,’ or if I ask for a braid in my hair, they’re like ‘Oh, you want to be cool mom again!'" she says. "You naturally change because there’s something else that consumes your mind at all times and I don’t think you can help that, but you can still be cool!”
“But, some people are lucky enough to have people around them who are able to help,” Teigen explains. "Like, my mom lives with us. It’s an incredible experience that I’m able to have, because I can maintain this balance of still having a life, and being a mother, and being a mother with a life, and my life being a mother.”
“And even if you don’t have a live-in mom, if you aren’t afraid to lean on other people when you need it, I don’t think you have to feel like you have to give everything up. But it does change you, and that’s why I think you have to be completely ready.”
Now "in a much better place" and feeling "like everything's coming together really well right now," Teigen is ready to focus on her own projects.
“I just started working on the cookbook again yesterday. As I talked about in my essay, I was going through a really dark time, so I had started the cookbook, and then I had to completely put it on pause, because it was a lot for me,” she confessed. "So as of yesterday, I started doing really great, and I really got back into the mode of cooking.”
“I’m really starting to feel like myself again. I’m going to try to knock out a bunch of recipes, go on tour with John and Luna, live on this tour bus and then come back, do a few more recipes, shoot the cookbook and then have it out for everybody by the beginning of next year," Teigen adds.
Shortly after revealing her struggle with PPD, Teigen shared a downside to dealing with the disorder: people can't help but tiptoe around her.