In the 35-year-old former Playboy Bunny's new tell-all
, Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
, she details the shocking emotional abuse she says she endured while living with 89-year-old Hugh Hefner. Holly alleges that the first time she met Hef, he offered her drugs.
"'Would you like a Quaalude?' Hef asked, leaning toward me with a bunch of large horse pills in his hands, held together by a crumpled tissue," Holly writes, in excerpts Us Weekly
obtained before her book's June 23 release.
Holly says she declined the drugs, which Hef reportedly called "thigh-openers."
"Hef did not miss a beat: 'Okay, that's good,' he said, nonchalantly," Holly recalls. "'Usually, I don't approve of drugs, but you know, in the '70s they used to call these pills thigh-openers.'"
The Girls Next Door star accuses Hugh of being manipulating.
"I learned Hef was the manipulator and that he pitted us against one another," she writes about her relationship with other girls at the mansion. “I don’t have any loyalty to Hef. I haven’t talked to him in four years, so there's no reason to reach out now. Besides, it's the truth."
Once she decided to finally move out of the Playboy Mansion, she alleges that Hugh first tried to bribe her with three million dollars in his will to get her to stay.
"The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to Holly Madison at the time of his death (provided I still lived in the Mansion). At the time, it was more money than I'd ever know what to do with… But I didn't want it," she writes. "I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn't help but be offended. Did he really think he could buy me? I put the folder back on the bed just as I had found it and never breathed a word of it."
A March press release for Holly's memoir also stated that she actually contemplated suicide
in a bathtub "after losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future," in the famous mansion.
Holly is now married to husband Pasquale Rotella, and the couple has a two-year old daughter together, Rainbow Aurora
. Interestingly enough, there appeared to be no bad blood between Holly and Hugh in Dec. 2012, when the Playboy publisher wrote well wishes to her
while she was suffering from an extreme case of morning sickness.