Khloe Kardashian Admits She Couldn't Have Cared for Lamar Odom 2 Years Ago

by Elizabeth VanMetre 10:20 AM PST, November 16, 2015
Playing Khloe Kardashian Admits She Couldn't Have Cared for Lamar Odom 2 Years Ago

Khloe Kardashian isn't sure she would have been able to handle everything she's going through a couple of years ago.

The reality star and author of the book, "Strong Looks Better Naked," made her first talk show appearance since Lamar Odom was hospitalized on Monday's The Ellen DeGeneres Show where she shared that such life-altering events like the 2003 death of her father and the 2013 split from husband Lamar have simply made her more resilient.

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"The crazy thing is as much as I went through, everything that was dramatic, and I feel like your scars make you better and tell a better story in life, but this book is very much what I'm living right now," she told Ellen. "If [Lamar's hospitalization] would have happened, I think, two years ago, I don't know if I would have been strong enough to even have the tools to deal with what I'm dealing with now or be able to balance everything, so it's just really ironic that I'm promoting this book, but I'm actually like living what I wrote about."

Khloe has certainly experienced a lot of change this year, including stepdad Caitlyn Jenner transitioning from male to female.

"I had a hard time [with the transition] because I found out on camera, like, while we were filming, and I felt like we kept asking him what's going on," she explained. . "He kept telling us one thing, but really he knew he was transitioning and wouldn't be honest with us. So we felt like we were kind of the last to know, so that was hard for us. Especially me, I defended him for so long."

Khloe went on to explain that she thinks the former Olympian believed "glimmers of Bruce" would still be there but "they're two separate people."

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When asked if she sees Bruce at all when she looks at Caitlyn, the youngest Kardashian sister answered, "No, I really don't."

While visiting with Ellen, Khloe also revealed that, while Lamar knows he has a brain injury, she hasn't told him why. To see the reason behind the difficult decision to not tell him, watch the video below.