Scarlett Johansson is reflecting on that time she "lost" herself.
The 31-year-old Captain America: Civil War actress graces the cover of Cosmopolitan magazine's May issue for the first time in nine years, and in her tell-all interview with the glossy, she gets candid on a former relationship that led her to hit rock bottom.
"Long, long ago, I had someone in my life who was forever unavailable...but, like, so attractively unavailable," she reveals. "You have to get to your breaking point -- rock bottom is the moment when you're like, 'I've lost myself. Why am I standing outside this bar at 1:30 in the morning texting while my friends are inside? Or taking a taxi to see him at some ungodly hour? This isn't me.' That is the moment you've gotta cut it off. Otherwise, it will keep coming back, suck your blood."
Luckily, that isn't the case for Johansson anymore, as the blond beauty is happily married to French journalist Romain Dauriac. The two began dating in November 2012 and said "I do" in a secret ceremony in Philipsburg, Montana, in October 2014, roughly one month after Johansson gave birth to their daughter, Rose.
Before that, she was married to Deadpool actor Ryan Reynolds from 2008 to 2011 (he re-married in 2012, tying the knot with Gossip Girl star Blake Lively). Johansson was previously romantically linked with Jack Antonoff from the band fun, and actors Josh Hartnett and Sean Penn.
All relationship talk aside, she also opens up about some more serious topics in her revealing interview, including the recent chatter regarding the defunding of Planned Parenthood.
"There are countries at war, there's terrorism, global warming, and we're like, 'We should definitely cut the budget for Planned Parenthood. Let's take away the availability of women's health initiatives!'" she states. "It's nuts. We're talking about preventing cervical and breast cancers. Growing up, I used [Planned Parenthood’s] services. All my girlfriends did -- not just for birth control, but for Pap smears and breast exams."
"You read about the rise of back-alley abortions, women having to mutilate themselves and teenagers having to seek help in unsafe conditions, and for what?!" she continues. "We're moving backward when we're supposed to be moving forward."
And when it comes to equal pay for women in Hollywood, Johansson considers herself quite fortuitous.
"There's something icky about me having that [equal pay] conversation unless it applies to a greater whole," Johansson dishes. "I am very fortunate, I make a really good living and I'm proud to be an actress who's making as much as many of my male peers at this stage. I think every woman has [been underpaid], but unless I'm addressing it as a larger problem, for me to talk about my own personal experience with it feels a little obnoxious. It's part of a larger conversation about feminism in general."