For the first time on camera, Lauren Bushnell is opening up about life after her split
from fiancé Ben Higgins.
ET's Lauren Zima caught up with the former Bachelor star at Sole Society's 'Toast Friends and Fall Fashion' event at The Highlight Room atop the Dream Hotel in Hollywood, California, on Thursday, where she told us she's back in Los Angeles working on a new business venture… and herself.
"It's been, honestly, vital. I don't think I would have been able to do it without my friends and also, specifically, my family," Bushnell confessed. "It's always a weird thing to go through and there's not a right way to do it … there's also been nights where I feel very alone, but I think that's good."
"I think that's good to feel things, and I think it's good to go through things by yourself," she added. "I think that's when I've learned the most about myself, so, they've been very vital, but I also think it's been good to spend time with just me."
ET then asked the blond beauty what she ultimately thought went wrong with Higgins.
"I think that's such a hard question and I've spent so much time thinking about that because I want to be able to be like, 'OK, maybe this is what went wrong,'" Bushnell explained. "But in all of the reflecting that I have done, I can't really pinpoint one thing. It's just a hard situation when you meet on TV and you get engaged in such a short amount of time."
"You end up learning more about the other person after the fact," she continued. "You go back to real life and then that's really when you learn about the other person. You learn if you can work together, especially living together. That's a whole other thing. So, I don't know if one thing went wrong. I don't even know if anything went wrong; I think it just came to a point where, obviously you're engaged, so the next step is marriage. When it came to talking about marriage, it didn't feel completely right."
Even though things didn't work out with Higgins, she told ET there's no bad blood.
"I have nothing negative to say about Ben," she exclaimed. "He's such a good person. There's nothing wrong with him at all. He did nothing wrong, I did nothing wrong, it's just more like… sometimes it doesn't work, and the pressure [of getting married] obviously is an added element. But I don't think that's necessarily what caused a breakup."
Moving forward, Bushnell is excited for what lies ahead, both personally and professionally. She says she's currently working on new business ideas.
"I love fashion," she gushed. "I'm obviously passionate about that, but I also am realizing that I miss a certain level of privacy. When you're in the public eye and blogging, or whatever, it's a lot about putting yourself out there. So, I'm trying to figure out how to balance that and also balance a level of privacy and just living my life."
"I'm trying to find something to do. I'm actually working on launching a rosé. I love rosé!" she continued, telling ET it's called Dear Rosé. "Look for it! Not yet, not yet, but we're working on it right now. I think that will be fun, and I was a business major, so it will kind of allow me to sort through the knowledge I learned however many years ago."
Bushnell is currently dating someone new, Devin Antin, whom she says is helping her out with Dear Rosé.
"I'm very protective over [this new relationship], because it's someone that I've known for a while," she explained. "We had a friendship established before I even went on The Bachelor. When you go through a breakup -- for me, at least -- that was the last thing on my mind. I wanted to just take the time to, like, take a deep breath and think back on things that happened and just kind of reset a little bit."
"So, it wasn't necessarily planned, if you will," she added. "It's a friendship, and because of that friendship first, I'm also very protective of it. So, I haven't really shared a lot about it, but I'm very happy."