Bruce Jenner's Interview Outtakes: 'I'm Trying to Live with Myself'
By Antoinette Bueno
More previously unseen clips of Bruce Jenner's revealing interview with Diane Sawyer aired Monday morning on Good Morning America, in which the 65-year-old former Olympian opens up about his complicated relationship with paparazzi, and admits to not being there for his older children in the '80s.
"Because I'm trying to live with myself," he says about his noticeably changing appearance in recent months, which has included wearing his hair longer and sporting red nail polish. "Absolutely -- trying to be myself."
“[But] I wasn't daring them [paparazzi]," he adds, stressing that he was venturing out for himself. "I’ll give you that it may look like that, but I wasn't daring them at all."
Bruce says that dealing with his complex lifelong feelings were much harder than any of his Olympic feats.
"Life is much more difficult than running the decathlon, I can tell you that," he explains. "Everyone has their things they have to deal with. This happens to be the thing I’ve dealt with my whole life. I’m trying to do something about it for the good -- okay? And I don’t think anybody could be critical of that. At least I hope not."
In the new footage, Bruce also admits to some fault when it comes to raising his children -- specifically, his older children Cassandra, Burt, Brandon and Brody Jenner.
"Yes, the big formative years for them I was really struggling with these [transgender] issues," he says about largely being absent from his kids' lives in the '80s. "I talked to all the boys about this after the fact and yeah, I didn’t go a good job, and I apologize to my kids for that."
However, all seems to be forgiven.
"In seeing him come out to me and explain his true self, I was more proud right there to carry the last name Jenner and to be part of the family than at any time before," Brandon says.
His first wife Chrystie Crownover also spoke out on GMA about watching the two-hour special with Bruce. "He was tearful at times and it broke my heart. I reached over and tried to give him a little comfort," she said, tearing up herself. "It broke my heart for him. I think it was cathartic to watch it together. I think it was cathartic for him. It was pretty intense."
But like Bruce's second wife, Linda Thompson, Chrystie recognizes the good the interview will do. "I'm sure there are plenty of people who don't have the courage to come out at all ever and they live private, dark tortured lives and that's tragic. The fact that he did share it with me that first year -- it was actually a gift that he gave to me that he trusted me with something so intimate."