Rita Ora has mixed feelings about her first boyfriend -- a 26-year-old man -- who she dated when she was 14 years old.
Ora's thoughts on the relationship, which she talked about during a 2013 appearance on Amanda de Cadanet's Lifetime show, The Conversation, was recently unearthed in a new unauthorized biography on the singer titled Hot Right Now.
"I would say [he was] about 26, and you have to remember I hadn't had a relationship before then at all," Ora explained to de Cadenet.
The "Body on Me" singer, now 24, was a student at London's Sylvia Young Theatre School at the time. When de Cadenet pointed out that their age difference is considered "child abuse," Ora revealed her mixed emotions.
"It's child abuse, really, isn't it?" she reflected. "I don't want to say that I suffered it, because I wanted it. I don't want to say that I was forced to do it. I don't want people to think I was abused as a kid, but I was definitely [more] mature than I should have been at 14."
Ora said she felt "confident" and "sexy" due to male attention.
"I can't begin to tell you how confident I felt when a man was interested in me," she said. "Like, I felt like I was sexy. I felt like I had a form of respect. I felt like he listened to me. Now I know he listened to me because he obviously wanted to have sex with me. I felt good that men fancied me so I would, you know, wear low tops, I would put red lipstick on, I would, like, make my hair blonder."
"And my mom would just be completely be like, 'What are you doing?'" she admitted. "And I think that's what got me dressing crazy, why I love crazy clothes because, you know, my mom always let me freely express myself. ... And don't get me wrong, even to this day if someone fancied me, I'd still feel so great."