Angela "Big Ang" Raiola always put her family first.
The Mob Wives star died last week at age 55 after a long battle with stage 4 lung and brain cancer, and in the first episode of the docu-soap series that aired since her death, the late reality star got emotional on the day of her surgery.
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In the heartbreaking episode, titled "Cuts Both Ways," that aired on Wednesday, Big Ang appeared teary-eyed in her Staten Island, New York, home before heading to a procedure to remove part of her lung.
"Everything's running through my head," she explained. "All I keep thinking about right now is my grandchildren, my kids. Am I ever going to see them again? I am the glue that holds this family together. Without me this family would fall apart."
Big Ang -- who is survived by her estranged husband, Neil Murphy, two children, A.J. and Raquel Donofrio, and six grandchildren -- also revealed that she still had a lot she wanted to accomplish.
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"You know, I've done a lot in my life. I had a full life," she continued, breaking down in tears. "But I'm not done here. I gotta be around, 'cause I want to see my grandchildren."
As ET previously reported, the beloved reality star was laid to rest on Monday at the Resurrection Cemetery in Staten Island.
"Everyone was trying their best to be strong but it was a very, very sad day," a source told ET of the funeral.
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