"To start off, I would like to say that I love each and EVERY ONE of my fans," Carter began his letter, which was a screen grab of the Apple Notes app. "There's something I'd like to say that I feel is important for myself and my identity that has been weighing on my chest for nearly half of my life. This doesn’t bring me shame, just a weight and burden I have held onto for a long time that I would like lifted off me."
"I grew up in this entertainment industry at a very young age and when I was around 13-years-old I started to find boys and girls attractive," Carter, who was once linked to both Lindsay Lohan and Hilary Duff, confessed. "There were years that went by that I thought about, but it wasn't until I was 17-years-old, after a few relationships with girls, I had an experience with a male that I had an attraction to who I also worked with and grew up with."
The "Sooner or Later" singer, who is estranged from his older brother and Backstreet Boys member Nick Carter, added that while music is a huge part of his life, his "ultimate goal is to be satisfied." He closed with an inspirational quote from the openly gay singer Boy George.
"To me music has always been my temple," Carter wrote. "Music will ALWAYS be what transcends us and myself. The studio has always been my safe haven. But the ultimate goal for me is to be satisfied. I never want to be a figure of disappointment. The best quote to sum 'I've never felt as though I didn't belong, I just acted as though I did.' —Boy George."