Sarah Paulson Explains Why Her Relationship With Holland Taylor Takes a 'Certain Amount of Hope and Risk'

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"I do not want to be defined by who I share my bed, my home, my soul with."

Sarah Paulson is a woman who knows what she wants.

In the February issue of Town & Country magazine, the 43-year-old actress opens up about her relationship with Holland Taylor as well as her thoughts on having children of her own someday.

"I do not want to be defined by who I share my bed, my home, my soul with," Paulson tells the magazine. "My choices in life have been unconventional, and that’s my business."

As for her bond with Taylor, 74, the Emmy winner adds, "Our relationship represents a certain amount of hope and risk. Maybe there’s something brave in it. Maybe it encourages others to make brave choices. What else can I say? We love each other."

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While Paulson is content in her love life, she admits that she does fear starting a family because she understands the sacrifices that would come with such a responsibility. "I don’t want to be torn. I don’t want to look at my child and say, ‘You’re the most extraordinary thing that ever happened to me, but also the death knell,'" she explains. "I’ve always known what I wanted out of professional life, and I didn’t want to turn around and go, ‘If I had only made the choice to just dedicate this time in my life to me.’ It’s selfish, but I think the word selfish gets a bad rap."

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Paulson is also grateful to be where she's at in her career, but is always looking to reach higher. "I’ve got a window as a woman of 43. I’m trying to keep it open with both hands, as wide as possible, for as long as possible," she notes. "Going to the next level means that you’re at the bottom of the next rung. Look, many of them [top-tier actresses] have won Academy Awards. I don’t expect to get offered those roles before them, but I still want them. All it means is that I have to keep working the way I always have, leaving my ego at home and trying to just think about what is true."

Back in March, Paulson was pretty candid with ET about whether she'd ever consider being a mother one day. Check out our exclusive interview with the Ocean's 8 star: