“What if I’m putting off what is supposed to be my greatest job, or my greatest purpose?” she asks her therapist. “I feel like I’m too self-involved. I don’t want to be that self-involved, because it’s gross.”
“There comes a point in your life where you sit back and say, ‘What am I doing?’” she says in a confessional. “There’s gotta be more.”
Then, Cameran dives into the reason why she started thinking about having a kid: her husband, Jason Wimberly.
“My husband, we have a dock where we live, and he was sitting out on the end of the dock, and the sun was setting,” Cameran recalls. “I walked out there and I sat down beside him, and he just seemed, like, very deep in thought and maybe, like, a little bit upset.”
“I said, ‘What’s going on, what’s wrong?’” she continues. “He said, ‘I was just out here thinking how nice it would be if I had a child, who I could come out here with and teach how to fish.’ It just broke my heart into a million pieces.”
“I mean, he would be the best dad anybody would possibly want,” she says, starting to choke up. “I would be robbing a child of the opportunity of having him as a father, because he would be just incredible.”
Cameran’s therapist gets blunt, telling the reality star she already knows what she should do.