Amy Schumer is opening up about a traumatic experience from her past.
The I Feel Pretty star discussed her first sexual encounter during her appearance on Oprah Winfrey's SuperSoul Conversations, recalling the first time she had sex as "gray-area rape."
“You think when that happens you say, ‘OK, well, this isn’t someone I want to see rotting in a jail cell, but what he did to me was wrong,’” Schumer explained. “I didn’t consent, and for me, I lost my virginity while I was asleep and that’s not OK.”
“The first thing he said was, ‘I thought you knew,’” she continued. “I didn’t say anything yet … He was my boyfriend. I loved him. I had to comfort him.”
“I also felt really angry,” said Schumer, who shared the experience in her stand-up routines, as well as in her memoir, The Girl With the Lower Back Tattoo. “It was just a feeling I had. I felt really angry at him, and it’s a rage that has stayed with me. I don’t think you lose that. As women, we’re really trained not to get angry because that makes people dismiss you right away … but I felt I wanted to comfort him because he felt so bad and he was so worried, just tried to push my anger down.
During her conversation with Winfrey, Schumer also spoke about another ex-boyfriend, claiming that his abuse convinced her that she "wasn't lovable."
"I got hurt by accident a lot. He didn’t realize how hard he’d grabbed me or shook me or pushed me, and I would fall and hit something then I’d be hurt,” she said. “I can picture being thrown on the hood of a car like it was an hour ago.”
“And running from him, carrying my shoes and running from him, running into backyards trying to get away from him because I was afraid for my life,” Schumer expressed. “It’s so out of body. You think, ‘I’m not this woman, who is this woman? This can’t be me.’ I’m not that kind of woman, and then you realize there is no kind of woman. It happens to all women.”
"And then again I would feel bad for him after he hurt me about how bad he would feel,” she said. “You don’t choose to fall in love with someone who hurts you, and you can be in love with someone who hurts you."
Schumer -- who married chef Chris Fischer in a surprise ceremony in February -- spoke with ET about her new friendship with Winfrey at the Los Angeles premiere of I Feel Pretty earlier this month.
"Yeah, sorry, I don't have any more openings [for best friends]," she said. "It's me and Oprah till the end"