"I wonder if it was a girl or a boy and how would she be," Lozada said. "Leo has brought so much joy into our lives, so I can't help but to wonder what that would have been like if I gave birth to that child."
Carl Leo is Lozada's 1-year-old son with Crawford. In March 2014, he joined big sister Shaniece, 22, from one of Lozada's previous relationships. In dealing with the pain of her loss, Lozada is trying to focus on the silver lining, giving words of encouragement to others who might find themselves in her shoes.
"One of the things that I would say to the women that have dealt with miscarriages, or are about to go through a miscarriage, is that it's not your fault," Lozada said. "I feel like every time something bad has happened in my life, something much better came into my life. I'm going to just sit back and wait to see what that is."
Lozada's journey is documented on Livin' Lozada, airing Saturdays on OWN.