Perry 'Still in Love' with Mayer, Talks Divorce

Vogue Magazine

Katy Perry gets unusually candid in the intimate interview accompanying her first Vogue cover, in which she talks about her ex-husband Russell Brand and admits she's still "madly in love" with ex-boyfriend John Mayer.

Among the surprising revelations in the interview?

According to Perry, Brand sent her a text message on New Year's Eve saying he was divorcing her.

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"He's a very smart man, and I was in love with him when I married him," Perry says. "Let's just say I haven't heard from him since he texted me saying he was divorcing me December 31, 2011."

She also claims that Brand "made jokes" about her in his comedy shows -- when he didn't think she was in the audience.

"[He's] hysterical in some ways. Until he started making jokes about me and he didn't know I was in the audience, because I had come to surprise him at one of his shows. So. Hysterical to a point. I mean, I have to claim my own responsibility in things. I do admit that I was on the road a lot. Although I invited him time and time again, and I tried to come home as much as I possibly could. You saw that in the movie [Katy Perry: Part of Me]. That wasn't edited to leave footage out -- there wasn’t any footage of him."

Perry blames the demise of their marriage on Brand not being able to handle her being "the boss" on tour.

"At first when I met him he wanted an equal, and I think a lot of times strong men do want an equal, but then they get that equal and they're like, I can’t handle the equalness. He didn't like the atmosphere of me being the boss on tour," she says. "So that was really hurtful, and it was very controlling, which was upsetting. I felt a lot of responsibility for it ending, but then I found out the real truth, which I can't necessarily disclose because I keep it locked in my safe for a rainy day. I let go and I was like: 'This isn't because of me; this is beyond me.' So I have moved on from that."

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As for her on-and-off again relationship with John Mayer, Perry says that she's still "madly in love with him," though their relationship is currently "over."

"I was madly in love with him. I still am madly in love with him," she admits. "All I can say about that relationship is that he's got a beautiful mind. Beautiful mind, tortured soul. I do have to figure out why I am attracted to these broken birds."

But for now, Perry is learning to be alone.

"But I think that I can just right now focus on me and strengthening myself and my emotional support system. I'm not in a relationship, I'm just on my own -- I am myself in my own bed," she says. "I have to be happy being alone, and I am happy. I believe that I will be loved again, in the right way. I know I'm worth it."