Williams talks about her new 'do with the magazine, and calls it "fun."
"I like it," she says. "Especially this blonde -- it feels like it is just a new twist on the same old me. It's just hair! But it's fun. Maybe I'll become this gorgeous bombshell vixen. Or maybe I'll still just be the adult-spelling-bee spirit I've always been. I bet people won't recognize me, and that's gonna be a fun reveal with my friends."
"I think if I'd used my middle name professionally -- Howell Williams -- I'd have a totally different career," she adds. "I'd be an indie darling. I'd be fighting with Greta Gerwig for parts. I'd have gone blonde earlier."
"I wake up every morning thinking I need to be edgier," she admits. "I read very one-note. Teacher's pet, goody two-shoes. I'd hate to be annoying. Who wants to see movies with someone annoying in them? But it's hard for me to paint myself as anything but whatever it is I come across as -- which is pretty together. It's not that I'm hiding stories about being drunk on Sunset Boulevard or something."
"It's just genuinely how I'm wired, and it’s why I was right to play Marnie -- because I do want to do everything right and in the best way possible," she continues. "And abandoning perfectionism was a real struggle that I had to go through when I realized it's not possible. But I'm a big note-writer, a big gift-giver. It's how I'm wired, and it's so boring and annoying."
Though the actress is very much aware that she leads a pretty enviable life.
"It feels much better to work tirelessly on all these other things that are kind of unsolvable and thus deeply satisfying, than to just sit somewhere and think, 'How do I harden myself publicly? How do I make myself seem edgier when I truly lead an un-edgy life?'" she says about keeping a busy schedule. "I mean, then I got married, and now I have this dog who’s perfect. It just gets worse and worse."
"The fact that I'm working on all these other things means that I'm not spending my spare time in a spiral of anxiety," she explains. "Because ten milligrams of Lexapro is not enough to keep me sane about the amount of worry that I have about all of it."
Still, there are some up sides to living a comfortable amount of fame. Williams says she can still walk around New York City and not be bothered.
"I don't want to be any more interesting than I am," she stresses. "I love the life that I get to live, which is one of real independence and privacy and autonomy. And I get to experience the city in a way that -- if I may name-drop for a second, someone like Katy Perry, who's a really good friend -- doesn't get to. ...That's not a universe she can experience anymore."