Selma Blair Opens Up About the 'Uncontrollable Anxiety' She Gets While Living With MS
By Scott Baumgartner
Selma Blair is updating fans on how she is coping with multiple sclerosis.
The American Crime Story actress posted a photo of herself late Sunday in which she’s snuggling a stuffed bear while wrapped up in bed. She fixes the camera with a determined stare as she tucks her chin into a gray sweater.
“There is a truth with neurogedenerative brain disease,” she explained in the Instagram post's caption. “It is uncomfortable. It is a stadium of uncontrollable anxiety at times. Going out, being sociable holds a heavy price. My brain is on fire. I am freezing. We feel alone with it even though the loving support has been a god-send and appreciated.”
“People write me asking how I do it. I do my best,” she continued. “But I choke with the pain of what I have lost and what I dare hope for. and how challenging it is to walk around. But my smiles are genuine. This is ok. Life is an adventure with many shards of awakening. I can’t sleep at night but daytime I have trouble staying awake. I am a grown woman holding onto a bear that belonged to a sister type of mine.”
The 46-year-old actress went on explain how she copes with the symptoms of the disease.
“I have a full week ahead with mothering and appointments and things to look forward to,” she wrote. “But like many of us, I am praying. Soaking in love where I can. It’s not easy. That’s ok. I send love to you. And by the way, this #eileenfisher sweater is my go to cozy tonight in this hotel room. Thank you. And @lorrigoddard_ I can’t thank you enough for the morale boost of blonde.”
In December, Blair revealed that she had been diagnosed with MS. She shared another selfie at the time, along with a moving statement explaining her role on the upcoming Netflix show, Another Life, and how she is tackling it while facing her new normal.
She explained that, during a wardrobe fitting, costume designer Allisa Swanson "carefully gets my legs in my pants, pulls my tops over my head, buttons my coats and offers her shoulder to steady myself. I have #multiplesclerosis.”
"By the grace of the lord, and will power and the understanding producers at Netflix, I have a job. A wonderful job. I am disabled. I fall sometimes. I drop things. My memory is foggy. And my left side is asking for directions from a broken gps. But we are doing it,” she added. "I am in the thick of it but I hope to give some hope to others. And even to myself.”