“When I became a mom, I kind of lost myself. It was like a part of me died,” she says in an excerpt shared by People. “I’d been this very independent person. It was all about me. But now I had this little being, and I suddenly felt l couldn’t do other things and that was very hard for me. All I ever wanted was to be a mom, but when you’re actually experiencing that, it’s a shock."
Bündchen and husband Tom Brady welcomed their son Benjamin, 8, in 2009 and daughter Vivian, 5, in 2012. The Brazilian model is also step-mom to Brady's 11-year-old son Jack, from a previous relationship with Bridget Moynahan.
After having kids, Bündchen made some changes in her life and career.
“I had all this horrible, self-imposed guilt. I thought what a terrible mother I was for leaving my child even for like a day,” she expresses, adding that when she would take her kids to her jobs, “I was feeling guilty for that too. Like, ‘Here we are on a plane and the baby is crying.’"
Being a working mother and having a husband have a full-time job also took a toll on her and the NFL player's marriage.
“You’re overwhelmed and tired and then you’re not the nicest partner,” Bündchen admits. But the two eventually got into the rhythm of parenting and working.
“When someone you love is happy, it makes you happy, or if they’re sad it makes you sad,” she says. “You suffer with them and you have joy with them."