In "Wouldn't Leave," Kanye raps, "Build your own'—I said, 'How, Sway?' / I said, 'Slavery a choice'—they said, 'How, 'Ye?' / Just imagine if they caught me on a wild day / Now I'm on fifty blogs gettin' fifty calls / My wife callin', screamin', say, 'We 'bout to lose it all!' / Had to calm her down 'cause she couldn't breathe / Told her she could leave me now, but she wouldn't leave."
The rapper says that after his explosive comments, he definitely felt there was a chance Kim could leave him.
“There was a moment where I felt like after TMZ, maybe a week after that, I felt like the energy levels were low, and I called different family members and was asking, you know, ‘Was Kim thinking about leaving me after TMZ?’” he admits. “So that was a real conversation.”
“He could look at me and you know, I don’t know why he mentioned suicide, but he could tell that I was very low,” Kanye recalls. “Really medicated, shoulders slumped down, and my confidence was gone, which is a lot of the root of my superpower, because if you truly have self-confidence, no one can say anything to you.”
Kanye is extremely candid about having suicidal thoughts, sharing, "Oh yeah, I’ve thought about killing myself all the time. It’s always a option and [expletive]. Like Louis C.K. said: I flip through the manual. I weigh all the options."
“I’m just having this epiphany now, ’cause I didn’t do it, but I did think it all the way through," he continues. "But if I didn’t think it all the way through, then it’s actually maybe more of a chance of it happening.”