Ahead of the late star's private memorial at Brooklyn's Barclays Center on Saturday, Lindstrom, who shared her 4-year-old son, Exodus, with DMX, wrote a few words about how "hard" it was going to be to say goodbye to her son's father.
"Today is very hard for me and my family...but one thing that is keeping me going is knowing that my son and I just gained an amazing angel, my fiancé and Exodus father...Earl Simmons..!" she wrote alongside a photo of herself and her son. "I will forever love you and you will always be in my heart!"
Fans were invited to live stream the memorial service on his YouTube channel on Saturday. Before it started, DMX took his final ride through New York City. His red casket was driven from where he grew up in Yonkers, New York, to Brooklyn's Barclays Center, where one of DMX's final big concerts took place back in June 2019.
"Everything he did, he did for you all," said one of his family members. "He always wanted to please you, he always wanted to give his best show. We are now the ones who are hurting…He changed your lives through his music."
She added that DMX's wish "was to have all his children together, all of the mothers on one accord. So today we celebrate, today, long live Earl Simmons."
A day before the memorial, Lindstrom also posted an photo of her and DMX kissing on her Instagram Story, writing, "I love you so much baby!"
She recently got a tattoo in memory of the man she was set to marry. Black Ink Crew's Krystal Kills shared a photo of the tattoo on her Instagram page, which reads, "Dog Love" with a large "X" underneath. The tattoo artist also shared several photos of herself alongside Lindstrom and the rapper.
"Dog Love" is the name of DMX's 2006 song and the "X" was drawn in the same font the late performer used to stylize his stage name.
"The first night we met and you held me close. I knew I would never let go," Lindstrom wrote in a heartfelt tribute to the rapper on Instagram. "I was lost in you and nothing else mattered. My best friend, my baby, my love...truly my everything. Thank you for us. Thank you for [our son] Exodus. Thank you God for Earl Simmons...forever X."